i've never had such high anxiety. im constantly shaking and sick to my stomach. i hate this. this should not be happening and I hate that it is. I just want to cry. I'm trying to do my job to the best of my ability and it sucks that this is part of my job. I just want to curl up in a ball until it goes away, but I can't. This is my job and I have to be professional and still keep my friends.

For now, I will curl up in a ball and sleep because I am so emotionally drained I can't keep my eyes open.