Going Downhill...

so after that last entry my summer started going really great. i had a really awesome 2 weeks. I got a job! which is fantastic. I actually ended getting 2 offers. Well one never officially made the offer but when I told them I was taking another job she said something to the effect. Anyway. I'm working as the "dramatics coordinator" at a summer camp in Monroe. Heather works there as the dance specialist so it's nice to know someone. And the kid who got the job I originally applied for (the music specialist) is actually someone I know from church and I'm excited to be working with him too.
I'm doing three musicals. the 3rd/4th graders are doing a show written by the camp directors. The 5th and 6th graders are doing Annie Jr. (conveniently which I did in 8th grade, and have on video =) and my script still...i'm a pack rat) and the 7th and 8th graders are doing a revised version of You're a Good Man Charlie Brown.
After I got the job I went and made all the cuts to the script and additions to the 3rd/4th grade show that I was asked to do...now I just need to get them approved by the camp directors.
I'm excited for this job, but I"m a little nervous having never directed before, but it'll be a learning experience and I'll have help and support so it should be fine. I can't wait for that to start so I"m actually doing something I like to do with my time.
I also got a new phone (my old one crapped out), saw Next to Normal, saw The Last Goodbye at Joe's Pub where Sarah works, went to the beach (got an awful burn on my back which is just going away a week later), went to the COlorado Cafe for the first time in months, saw all my friends, got paid a little to work for a day at Rutgers, and just all around had some fun for awhile.

Tuesday I started a temp job at STS near my house. I work in the accounting department. When I say that i sort paper, count the piles, total the piles and put it in a folder...i'm not kiddng. All week. And for the next week and a half. It's awful. I get $10 an hour which is fantastic, but that doesnt change the fact that I sit at a desk by myself, alone, no music, no one to talk to, no nothing, for 9 hours a day. Then I come home and I'm exhausted because I can't sleep at night. I finally fall asleep around 3 am and I get up 3 hours later. a few times in the past few weeks I've resorted to taking medicine that makes me drowsy to fall asleep. Someting tells me that's not healthy. Even today on my day off, didn't fall asleep til about 3 am. expected that i'd end up sleeping late since I had nothing to do today but go to church in a few hours, but I woke up at like 9. for some reason I just can't get a full nights sleep. and it's not like I dont want to. Hell, I've started going to bed at like 9:30...and i sit in my bed for hours attempting tos leep and i dont. what the hell body. let me sleep.

so i've been working for a week and come tomorrow when I finally see my friends at the colorado I'll not have seen any of them for a week. It's summer. why am i going a week without seeing my friends? Summer is long, but it's not that long. a week without seeing them is kind of shitty. And since no on is around today (not even my family - mom is at a spa with her sisters and my bro/dad are at the Mets game) I've been sitting around doing nothing. I went fora run, I have church soon, and I deposited my check from work. I considered last night ddriving up to Bloomsburg to see Tara, but then I remembered that i believe she is out of town this weekend for a graduation party.

I lead a sad life right now. It's only been a week like this and I can't stand it. This cannot happen for the next few weeks before I start my other job. My friends and I discussed going on a little "vacation" before our jobs start. I hope we do. I can't stand being in an office all day and then coming home to not being able to sleep and not seeing my friends. and i've never not gone on vacation before. My family always goes. I know I sound like a little spoiled brat but it's just what we do. We save up every year and go somewhere for a week. This year is our last year of vacation so I was told, and I have the fortune of not being able to go because of work. It sucks. alot. I like just having that week to relax, hang out on the beach and spend time with my family.

well, I'm really only writing this cuz i'm bored. I have some other stuff I could talk about but I'd rather not I guess. I'm just lonely right now. I feel alone. whatever. I'm gonna get ready to go to churh.

<3
Kelly